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I always wanted to strived and acheieved for the best for my own sake, but one thing pulled me down, and thats laziness.

Will you believe me if I say I'm the laziest person in my family? Lazy to put my legs together to make things done quickly. But I love drawing, its my passion. Even if there's lots of assignments or lot's of sketches for me to be done, I'll sit down there and draw for many hours. Thats the reason why I choosed Product Designing course isin't it? I admit I'm being too lazy for the past 6 months in school. I don't revised much for my exams. It's all last minute revision, and it didin't get into my brain. It didin't work that well for me. But for the next one and a half year, I'll definitely buck up. No last minute revision or last minute work in my dictionary, ever again.

I'm being a little too paranoid. I used to live my life as if the human race was about to become extinct, like nothing really mattered.

I started to feel no-life.



Here's a short post to keep my blog alive.

From joy to sorrow or from sorrow to joy? For me, I want it the second way.
This wasn't the first time I'd made a fool of myself. But on my top-ten list of foolish behavior, this obviously ranked number one. It wasn't just dumb. It was absolute, total idiocy. What am I suppose to do? What I'm doing now was nothing less than the ultimate and absolute act of self-humiliation.

Uhm, confidential.

Yesterday went training with Hadi and Xiu li at Nanyang Polytechnic, from 11am all the way to 9pm. Pretty exhausted by the time I reached home. I received a call from YOG saying that they're going to change my venue to Singapore Indoor Stadium instead of Scape. I've joined long ago, in the end they said no slot for me. What is this?! ): I guessed I'm not going without my classmates with me, it'll be boring. I'm not the type that will communicate well with other stranger.

Frankly speaking, I'm not a noble person. I want you to know that I'm brave. I want every guy in the whole wide world to know that I'm not a girl that can get bully of.




I discovered I'm very bad at letting people see me hurting. I just think the most sensible thing would be to keep all doors open. Don't you agree with that? Yes. People should be careful to lock up after themselves, both the doors leading to love and ones leading away from love. I know how terrible this is going to sound. Letting go is not a specialty of mine. In fact, it seems to be something I was born with. Or born without, I should say.

What if I have the right to kill guys using love as a murder weapon? Oh my god, just think. That's somehow stunningly cool isin't it? Duh, you can say my wire in my brian has un-plug. -.-

I'm always been blinded by jealousy and wounded by pride. I look back to that moment. I see it as the real heart of where things began to go wrong. Not that things were really wrong. Unprecedented-crazy wrong. I do feel a little pang when things went wrong for me. I tried to think about nothing, but couldn't do it.

I think I mostly returned an ignorant, questioning stare when people approached me.

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People die of love. I'm one of the few who'll admit it. That dosen't mean it isin't true.

Take all the people who died yesterday, or last week, or last year. Subtract all the sucides and the so-called accidents of the brokenhearted. Take away the men who got blown away for being in the wrong bed at the wrong moment, the women in abusive marriages who died of cancer because they couldn't find any other exit from their lives. All the AIDS deaths except from the needles and the transfutions, the ones they call the innocent victims. Like if you have sex, you're guilty. Deserved just what you got.

Now tell me who all you've got left.

Without love the world would be overpopulated, except that without love it wouldn't be populated at all. Love giverth and love taken away and all that crap. You'll probably say all those people died from the lack of love, but I say it's two sides of the same coin. So it's the same coin.
- Catherine Ryan Hyde.

But why dwell on ancient history? I don't want to re-visit that.







My birthday is coming soon on the 10th July, Saturday. I've got some plans on my mind, feel like going to Escape to have fun again. =x Hoping to go back to Bugis-Street to work in my holidays to earn some pocket money to use on my birthday itself. I swear I gonna play until like mad for this year's birthday! I don't know who to ask. If you want, give me a text then. (:

I'm a type that gets nostalgic easily. Laughing is therapeutic. I want the the feeling, to be myself.

Being single makes one more vulnerable. Everyone has their soft spot: once activated, the emotion can ride like a roller-coaster. An ex has expired; discard them and get a new one.

I was once being stucked in love. This guy makes me fall for him, and then we're same as any other couples, we broke-off in the end. My heart just couldn't open for other people for some time. Just because of my own wilfullness, I've lose out a lot of good opportunies out there. I didin't see it, I didin't realised it. Until, I've completed let him go.

Sometime how I wish there's a person beside me to go through ups and downs with me, I yearned it very much. But still, sometimes I still wants to be single. The feeling was like 50%-50% to me now. However, I still can't unravel this myth for myself. I don't know what I really want and what I really wants to be. Many failed relationships between couples are due to one-sided love or infatuation, of lack of understanding of the other half. Some problems goes to the guys that go for looks. Looks is one thing, character is another thing. Don't you think so? Lets say, If there is real trusting relationship between you both, it will last no matter the circumstances. If there's no more trust between the couples, chances of quarrelling over small little matters are very high. Even the tiniest matters in the whole wide world.

When I was in a relationship, I kept on questioning myself; 'Is there anything I can do to salvage what seems to be the dying of our relationship?' I was like crying for quite a few times when my heart aches. Even jealousy stuffs could make my tears flows like nobody's business. I know it may sound abit lunatic to you. Well, I did not say that my guy is always the one that did the wrong stuffs and make me cry. I admit sometime I'm the one being bad-tempered too. Like what others say, we girls tends to think too much, sometimes it may just make the matter's worsen. You see, it's the same to me.

My woes are my past memories. It always flashed back no matter how hard I tried to forget it, it just came back to my mind, like a daily routine. Eh hem. But well, I already know what I'm gonna do already. I guessed those who knows me well will know. ^^ After all, I don't want to be a abject failure. So, let's see what kind of girl will Lynn become after a few more months later okay? (: